I JUST WANT YOU.

I just finished reading Hadassah, One Night With the King by Tommy Tenney. I love the story of Esther and how she came to her position as queen. Not to mention all the beauty treatments and similarities to a beauty pageant. There is a part in the book that really stood out for me. When Esther has been taken to the palace against her will as part of the command for all the young virgins to come, she misses Mordecai, the man that raised her, very much. When she gets a chance to see him, she hugs him and they both cry from the joy of being together again, although it’s for a brief moment. Esther then goes back to her quarters and God's Spirit begins to speak to her. Since so much has happened in her life up to this point, she secretly had a negative attitude towards God. Remember she was an orphan. The book describes her family being brutally murdered, her only friend taken to become a eunuch, her current plight of being taken away from her beloved 'Poppa' aka Mordecai. She didn't understand how God could allow all these things to happen to her. Who hasn't ever been mad at God for some reason or another? A failed marriage, child abuse, death of a loved one, lost job, etc. The list goes on for reasons that people become mad at God.

God's Spirit asked her why she couldn't weep at his presence and rejoice at finding it the way she did Mordecai's presence. Of course, this is Tommy Tenney's artistic license, but it was a beautiful moment when Esther saw God's heart towards her. She felt His heart and His presence. Her attitude towards God changed. Who's heart wouldn't melt after that experience? He had 'created within her a clean heart and renewed a right spirit within her.'

God loves us so much. He wants us to love Him back but His love is not based on whether we love Him or not. He doesn't love you just because you love Him. Or because [you think] you do all the right things. One of my friends has been saying this scripture a lot lately. Romans 5:8, But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. It was before we became the sweet, lovable people we are today. (Smile)

So before God ask you or me the question that was posed to Esther, let our answer be: I JUST WANT YOU. This is a beautiful song by Vicki Yohe.